my boring life

this would be me.. it's 10:40 in the morning and i wake up at 6 am.. i slept at around 2:30.. i don't really know.. all i know is i had at most 5 hours of sleep on a summer morning.. it was raining when i woke up to unplug my laptop at 4:30.. i don't really know what's going on with my life.. here i am right now so hopeless on what would might happen tomorrow.. all i want to do is to sleep without any worries.. but i actually do have insomnia.. and i get a hard time going to sleep coz my room's kind of big and i hate sleeping alone..
so here i am.. thinking what to write about..
i always thought that my life was so boring and nothing really excites me right now.. i just wake up in the morning.. turn on the t.v. and then turn on my laptop and check out what's new.. well nothing's actually new.. i wake up.. think about what i have to do.. eat my lunch.. go back to work the things i have to do.. rest for a couple of hours or have a nap.. then have a bath.. eat my dinner and check the net again.. i do this every day! what kind of life do i have?! i hate this! i can't go out.. i am so broke.. my mom gives me limited money so i would not go to places i don't necessarily have to go to.. i want to watch a movie.. or eat out.. but sometimes it rains.. what kind of place is this?! i don't even do household chores because i don't have to.

so here i am.. thinking.. thinking.. what should i do about this boring life of mine.. i envy my other friends for they really have something to do on their own homes.. what should i do? the nearest city is like 2 hours away.. and the fare has increased! it's a financial crisis for me right now.. i'm so broke i'd rather not eat just to have money for the next day..
so i just stick to my blogging thing.. and think about the things i would want to write about.. now i write about how boring my life is.. no love life.. no text life.. no social life.. what kind of life is this? it sucks.. and it sucks big time!!
nobody to turn to and call my own! (wow! so dramatic!).. well.. i miss having someone.. someone special.. it's been two long years.. no one.. no one special.. not even someone i really like.. well if ever i had someone i like for the past two years.. it's not that serious.. i do have someone i love.. but it's hard to have a commitment with someone if you're not so sure if you really want another commitment right now.. i don't have someone who i can tell stories about to my friends.. i'm really on my own.. but on the other hand.. being single is somewhat fun.. you can entertain anyone you want and have total freedom.. but most of the time it bores me.. so much.. then i would start to reminisce some moments with people form the past.. i hate crying.. but i love to cry at times i am really low.. i want to dwell on how miserable i am because of my heart ache for once..

right now.. i just don't know.. i miss being so damn busy.. that's why i love school.. 'coz it makes me busy and never reminds me of how my life sucks and how boring it is.. i miss school.. i love to go to school.. damn.. this is freaking tiring.. i do the same thing every single days of my summer.. well except on sundays.. since i would be starting my violin and piano class.. i love it! i would be starting to play the violin again.. i love playing instruments.. since music is my sole life! well i am kinda excited! but it's still thursday! 2 days more to wait! urgh!! hmmp.. well as usual.. i can handle this... well.. it's almost lunch time.. any time now our maid would call me and let me eat my lunch.. it's 11 am.. and they let me eat my lunch at 11:30.. but it's ok.. i don't really eat breakfast since i wake up late in the morning already.. oh no!!! another mellow song from my player!! it reminded me of being alone again!! well.. call me hopeless romantic .. i don't care.. i am hopeless romantic.. and a sentimental fool.. what's wrong with that anyway? hmmp.. well got to go now.. i have to have my moments with my player.. and my cell phone..

one of the most beautiful place i've ever been to.. DAVAO!!

this would be one of the most beautiful places i have ever been in my life.. (so far).. DAVAO CITY!! last december 2007 we had a chance to travel to that beautiful place since it was time for our most awaited trip.. our FIELD TRIP!! i was so excited and so are the others.. it would be my first time and hopefully not the last to go there..
this picture was taken during our travel to DAVAO CITY PHILIPPINES!!
the first picture shows me and my best friend amagne eating our lunches.. the next picture would be me, angie (the girl beside me) and cesi (the girl in yellow)
the last picture is a picture of me and my long time friend tatits..
our trip to Davao was really fun.. we rode in a bus and we had a great time.. we would see who is sleeping and sometimes other people tease those sleepy heads! (like me!) hehe.. i love to travel in different places.. so when i get to have the chance.. i really grab it.. i was listening to toni's ipod half of the trip since it was so boring and everyone was starting to fall asleep in the middle of the trip because it was almost dark.. and when we finally got to Davao everybody was rejoicing for at last we arrived already!

the next day..
1st stop.. Philippine Eagle Center

these are some of the animals there.. we had fun taking pictures..

look!! here is a picture showing how i bonded with animals there.. ( a real animal lover )..
the picture on the left is a picture of me and my teacher Sir Ian.. a picture with a phyton around our necks.. it was a fun experience!! and the picture on the right is a picture of me and at my back was a picture of what they call "Lawin".. it was a beautiful bird and it was out of the cage! it was eating it's breakfast that's why it didn't have time to pose for the camera..

next stop..
Philippine Science High School Southern Mindanao Campus
that would be a picture of us! in the sister school of our school (am i right?)
since our campus is Central Mindanao Campus..
we were taking pictures as usual and toured around their campus that we realized more more beautiful than ours..

Last stop for the day...
Crocodile Farm!!
those pictures with the crocodile! yikes!! and the other animals in the area. an ostrich and a parrot!! :)

our last stop before going home..
Eden Park!
Visiting Eden Park was the most fun part of our field trip.. we had the whole day to roam around.. we rode horses, rode the Indiana Jones which was also fun and rode the Sky Rider where you will travel from one place to another while you are 70 feet above the ground!! wow!! i definitely tried that.. and it was one of the most unforgettable experience! ever!

** visiting Davao was fun.. it reminded me mostly of Manila (My Hometown).. because of it's city.. and i love how big the place it.. it was so large that we had to travel almost an hour just to get to our desired destination.. it's a place i will always love and dream of coming back for more!!

i am missing high school life!!

i was riding a bus a while ago.. and it was so quiet.. i was looking through the window.. looking at how the darkness covered up the whole place.. i was playing some mellow songs on my mp3 and then i realized how much i miss the moments when i never felt alone.. on the 2 hour trip from Iligan to our place in Kapatagan, i reminisced the moments i had with my friends.. my high school friends.. when they said high school life was the best.. i exactly knew what they want to say.. well.. these are the things i do miss about Pisay Life (High School Life)..

>>Sleeping in Class!! uh.. no.. i don't really sleep in class.. just drowsing.. hehe..
well.. let's all admit it.. we all have those subjects that we really don't find interesting at all!
and we even hate our teachers for giving us so many requirements and projects!
but.. i happen to survive all of those!
Lucky for me! :)

>>this picture was taken one morning while me and my Dorm Manager which we all call "Ma'am Jen" were taking our breakfast.. in this picture i finished my breakfast so quickly so i can complete my homework for my first subject on that day.. hehe.. i usually don't do my homeworks the night before.. (bad girl! ;))

>> Classroom Reportings.. i miss these kind of requirements.. you try so hard and gain enough courage to speak in front of your classmates and impress your teacher.. this is me.. reporting in behalf of my group mates in our economics class..

>> riding the school bus from school to dorm or vise versa.. this is me with Nophi (my friend and classmate for 3 long years).. we were chatting and cracked some jokes while waiting for Eric (our bus driver) to come and drive us home.. we sometimes hate Eric for being so grumpy and sometimes late in the morning.. he has some kind of "mood swings" hehe.. fellow schoolmates would know what i mean.. lol..





>> this is what we usually call "punishment".. cleaning our classroom!! i hate dusts! 'coz sometimes i have an allergic reaction.. but i have to help clean the room.. so i sweep the floor.. that's me on the lower left picture.. on the upper right picture these good girls apply floor wax on the floor.. on the upper left is our finish product.. a very shiny and clean room.. thanks to Alfred who was mopping the floor a while ago.. :)

>> this is what i do miss the most.. having fun.. and having unforgettable moments together with friends.. in the first picture me and my friend Janah were having fun at our dormitory.. she was kinda making faces while i project a smile in front of the camera.. she kinda freaked out when i told her i uploaded this picture on my Friendster account..
the next picture shows me reading a book which was Tuesday's with Morrie and my former seatmate Alfred texting someone i don't know who..
the last picture shows me and my good friend Jerven.. he was teasing me on being fat.. he likes to tease me a lot.. and argue with me about nonsense things..



>> the picture on the left is one of the most unforgettable moments i had.. one morning we all woke up and found out there was no water in the dormitory!! it was the first day of school in my 4th year.. so we had to travel to the nearest place with full of water and dip ourselves there! luckily we all survived and went to school looking fresh!
the next picture shows how some of us really studies hard.. these are my friends Toni and Kristine.. i think they were studying for a quiz the next day.. come to think of it.. they are also my classmates.. where was i at that time? hmm..

>> i love reunions.. these pictures were taken at our Jade Reunion our first year class last December 2007.. in the first picture we were trying to scare one of our former classmates Kenn.. we all discovered that he is afraid to go in the middle of the water.. so we tried to pull him deep into the water.. haha.. with the help of Cheena and Amagne.. next picture is Ate Shen with her big bite of the food! yumyum! and the last picture is a picture of us trying to jump out of the water.. we all had a great time!

** these are some moments i do miss about high school life and i will surely miss for the rest of my life.. it is surely a milestone i will keep as i journey through life :)

on happYness...

"being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.. it means that you've decided to see beyond imperfection.. So don't say you're happy because everything's alright.. be happy because everything sucks but you're doing just fine.."

>>my friend Patrice sent me this message this morning.. and it made me say that i really agree on this message.. and i thought, why not talk about happiness today..

>>instead of grieving for what is now gone.. why not make up for the times that was lost?
earlier, i went into a funeral.. it was the funeral of one of our dorm utility worker before.. at 51, she died of colon cancer.. it was then too late when they found out she had cancer.. at first she experienced pain and she would sometimes complain about it.. but treat it as something not serious and she thinks that it would just pass away.. but after a long time of experiencing pain, she had to go to the doctor to have a check up.. and that's when she found out that the little pain she has been experiencing has already developed on a much worse one.. colon cancer.. and it was too late to cure it..
i was thinking.. if she had known earlier that she had cancer, would she be still with us right now? maybe if she had known that she had cancer she had all the time to grieve on it.. and wouldn't have the rest of her time with her family.. i saw her pictures that was taken before she was confined.. she seem to be happy.. enjoying what could possibly be her last moments here on earth.. maybe it was meant to be like that.. sometimes we have to know what is wrong when it is all too late.. when everything is not right and there would never be a chance to fix it anymore.. maybe because at these moments, all we have to think about not the hope that we can still fix what is broken but to savor every minute or every second of our remaining time on making up for what is lost.. i have realized that when i was on my 4th year in high school..
i had friends.. and i kept them for my 4 years of stay.. but in my last year.. i made new friends.. i became close to people who i think i would never get close with.. i made friends with some people i had misunderstandings with in the past.. and i think why now? why not before? and then i realize.. so what? i know.. i couldn't make up for the moments that was lost.. but instead i made as many moments and memories with them as possible..

>>i'ts definitely fine to be sad at times
i guess.. that is the main concept of happiness.. life sucks.. life is unfair.. and there are things that you think you don't deserve.. but.. despite of all that.. it is still you choice to be happy..
i always tell my "emo" friends that Happiness.. is a choice.. life sucks.. but so what?! you can choose to be happy.. what matters is what you have right now.. and what is going to happen today.. because if you faced today with a bright and positive attitude.. it would change what you look forward to in the future..
tomorrow brings different things for you.. it's ok to grieve once in a while.. it's ok to be sad.. that's life.. life isn't life without challenges in it.. but what you have to think about is that there is always something new to look forward to in the future.. we can never change yesterday.. but we can control what could happen tomorrow..
sometimes it's just so hard to be optimistic in this world today.. there are just so many problems and we have to deal with those problems everyday.. but who said you have to grieve on it every night? or you have to think about it on weekends? even God had a break from work.. and we too have a right to have a break sometime.. we just have to spend one day without thinking what could happen tomorrow.. it's fun.. i have tried that already..

>>My Friend TJ
i have a friend who only thinks about what this day would bring and not think about tomorrow.. his name is TJ.. TJ and i had a little chat one night.. and we were talking about regrets and about life.. he thinks his life is pointless because he don't have a dream or ambition for himself.. well he thinks that maybe that is the reason why he thinks that life is so pointless.. but as we were talking i kept on telling him that if he thinks that his life is pointless he should die.. but he said he still wants to go to different places.. even if he would be regretting not going to school someday what matters for him is to be happy just for today.. he thinks that maybe he'd be gone tomorrow so he have to be happy today.. so i said, "so your life isn't pointless after all".. and then that's when i think he realized that i am right.. sometimes.. we have to be like TJ.. spending each day like it was your last.. at times i envy him so much because even though he knows that life really sucks at times.. he still lives like there is no tomorrow and tries to be happy..

>> My Friend Jerven and i talk about how sometimes our happiness could hurt the people we love
now.. all i think about is.. there are really a million ways to be happy.. each of us has a different way on how to be happy.. and what would makes us happy.. but sometimes what makes us happy hurts other people around us.. and what's much more worse? we sometimes hurt people close to us, people we love just because of our happiness.. there was one time when my friend Jerven asked this question: "what if your one and only happiness would hurt the people you truly love?".. i couldn't answer his question.. and i know i would never know how to answer this question.. Jerven had problems.. with dealing with this question.. all i can say is.. maybe we should think what would make us happy the most.. sometimes, our happiness is not the right thing.. we could hurt so many people for just one day of being happy.. and maybe the issue of risking would come in

>> On Risking..
my friend Princess had a problem risking... she said she knows it would make her happy but she is just too afraid to risk it.. i told her.. sometimes you have to risk some things for you to be happy.. and sometimes there are things that is worth risking for and there are things that are not.. maybe most of the things that i have risked for isn't worth risking for.. but i never regretted doing some of those things.. because from those mistakes i am a better and stronger person.. sometimes we have to make mistakes.. and risk some things of our life just to be happy in the future.. we all have to go through pain before we could feel such happiness.. we risk and bargain our happiness for a much better one.. and sometimes we fail.. but if only we have enough faith.. maybe we could never fail..

**happiness is such a subjective matter.. we have our own unique way of being happy and how to be happy.. sometimes we just have to appreciate small things just to be happy.. we may not know what our future brings.. but what matters is what you really want.. what you want today maybe what you would not want in the future.. people changes and so is how we deal with pain and happiness.. think about it.. maybe if i would try to be happy today.. i will be happy tomorrow.. even if it rains and i don't have my umbrella.. even if i slipped in front of somebody i like or even if today was just a bad luck day for me.. try to see the good side of things.. because we will always look forward for something new and something better tomorrow.. :)

my precious treasures..

these are my precious treasures.. these are the moments i will never ever forget.. these people made me happy for the past four years of my life.. and they will continue to make me happy for the rest of my life..
i want to tell you all about my friends..

Charmagne Anne D. Salmingo
i call her "amagne" and they sometimes call her "mingkay"

i can say that she is one of my closest friends.. my best friend.. well.. she's the person you never would want to mess up with.. but a person with a good heart.. we have several similar experiences and maybe because of that we can relate to each other very well.. our friendship is so deep i can't even see the end of it.. haha.. we never had a huge fight.. maybe because we handle each other's attitude so well.. these past years we've always been there for each other.. through rough times and also the good times..
she is a happy person most of the times.. we have lots of fun when we are together.. and we even chat until 3 am in the morning.. we have lots to talk about.. and i think we can never live without each other.. (hmm.. now that's melodramatic..) i think we can live without each other.. but i think our lives are way so much better with each other in it.. :)
she love to talk.. talk.. and talk.. hehe.. she also has a nice voice.. and good leadership skills.. well.. we are really friends you know.. hehe.. and i know she is know super serious with her love life..
well.. yeah.. that is her boyfriend.. hehe.. (peace!!).. well.. we are very similar when we like a person.. but somehow different when we are in love! hehe..
she claims that she is now serious in this relationship.. (i hope so!)..
she is sometimes adventurous.. and when i say adventurous i really mean it..
sometimes she doesn't think before doing some things..
but the good thing about her is.. she knows how to accept mistakes.. she knows how
to make up on the things she had done wrong.. and i am proud of her for that.. :)

Princess Stephanie P. Llanos
i call her "cesi" or "ces"

she is a very hyper active person.. but sometimes she is an "emo".. and proves that she is also a very deep person..
we had misunderstanding in the past.. and i originally never liked her.. at those times i think she is so insensitive.. but when i got the chance to know her more and see deep in her.. everything changed.. she is a nice person.. she is the official "joker" in our circle of friends.. she has deep thoughts and she admits her weaknesses at times.. and i think that she has grown into a very strong and matured person..
well.. we love to tease her with this basketball dude..

well his name is Harryl Cabardo.. we love to tease them because i think they look good together.. hehe that's in my opinion only.. well hell yeah.. they look good together don't they? hehe (peace!)
well.. cessy is the kind of girl that is fun to be with.. you would never have dull moments if you are with this person.. and i sometimes think that i should've gotten to know her a lot more if i just opened everything up earlier..
we've gotten so close since our retreat.. well tears flooded the room that time.. i learned to understand her and thought that i am like her.. closer to friends than any other people in this world.. i sometimes rely on her to keep my secrets and sometimes i do comfort her whenever she has problems.. and she also does the same to me.. all i can say is that i am so blessed to have her as a friend..

Mary Jay A. Pasculado
i call her "jay" sometimes "jecjec" or "mary jecjec"

she has always been my partner in crime in the dormitory.. we've been friends since first year.. since we are classmates.. i love to chat with her and make fun of her (in a good way, which she really admits she does sometimes) whenever she talks in her sleep.. since i sleep later than her.. and i sleep in their decks.. (i don't sleep on my own! hehe).. i love to sleep in their decks than mine.. hehe.. well.. she is really a smart girl.. she is also a talented one.. she likes to dance..
yeah.. that girl in the picture is her.. this was the time during our third year and days before our cheerdance competition.. we are having fun fitting our costumes and flirt around in front of the camera.. hehe
i will never forget the lines.. "ingana naman jud nang mga datu!" (rich people are really like that!) and "oh my god!" you're so pathetic!"
i love this girl.. and i cry on her shoulder most of the times.. she loves music as i do.. and is sometimes secretive about her love life.. well.. i know.. she is an organized person.. she knows her priorities.. nice girl!!

Jebien May T. Calapiz
i call her "jebjeb"

she's just an effortless girl.. effortless to look good and feel good.. she loves to crack jokes.. and it's funny at most times.. we all want to have a good laugh.. me, jay, amagne and jebjeb.. we all love to laugh until everything drops!! haha.. she is very creative and very artistic..
she loves to dance.. a really good dancer.. hiphop or ballroom.. she definitely rocks.. she loves to project funny poses and somtimes make faces.. she is also a smart person.. and tries hard to excel..
we love to chat.. chat about anything in the world..
she has so many admirers.. wahehe.. yeah..

she's is just a nice person.. and she thinks before she acts.. and she is just a wonderful friend!!!

well.. these are some of my friends close to me.. we all love to have a good laugh.. and have fun.. we all love to take pictures.. and i think it's one thing we agree on.. we also love music.. we all think a life without music is dull.. and life without each other would be hopeless.. we always help each other.. laugh at each other's mistakes and deal with each other's problems peacefully (peacefully?).. we all love to chat and talk about anything under the sun.. and we deal with each other's differences positively.. we don't take it against each other.. and i guess that is what real friendship means.. being the strength of another's weakness.. and life without friends is just like having no life at all!! :)

Taytay Madness

life is too short to waste any moment.. you don't have to plan everything that will happen in your life.. because some things that would make you happy come to you unexpectedly.. if there is one thing i have realized from this unforgettable experience.. it's to have fun today.. and don't think about whatever tomorrow may bring for once.. life is too short to worry about the future.. life is too precious to waste and think about what would happen tomorrow.. think about waht really makes you truly happy.. for once.. :)

i love my friends.. i love having fun with them.. this moment is what i would call our "Taytay Madness"..
it was the day right after our junior-senior prom 2008..
we all had a tiring night.. and these guys came from playing online games overnight.. while we 3 girls slept at amagne's place.. i slept quite earlier than amagne and cutie.. because i was just so tired.. the next morning i was awakened by a phone call from my mom (as always.. she wants me to wake up early even after prom night).. it was i think 8:30 in the morning.. and right after the phone call we started getting on our feet and ate breakfast.. i was texting with one of the guys (Jaymark) and asked what would be their plans for today.. they told me they would go for a swim in Taytay (which is a place with a pool).. i felt the excitement because it would be our chance to bond with the other guys.. so i asked the two girls if they would like to join them.. and without even thinking, they said of course.. and i told the guys that we would be joining them.. so after breakfast we grabbed anything we have to bring and went to the city to meet the other guys.. (take note.. we haven't took a bath yet! hehe).. but me and cutie (the chubby girl in the picture) didn't have enough undies for the swimming.. so we went to the closest department store and bought a pair of undies.. and after a while we met the guys..
it was so unplanned and i was so excited.. we bought everything we need like food, rice, drinks etc.. and when we came to Taytay, we all started to swim.. and even bought beer! (oopS! that's a secret.. ok?).. we had fun! we swam and ate all afternoon until the place needed to be closed for the day.. but i would say.. even though we were so tired from our activities last night we had fun.. and forgot that we are going to take our achievement tests the next day!! i haven't got the chance to study when we got back in our dormitory.. well.. all i care about is that i had fun! and it was one of the best days i've ever had!!

all about me..

this is all me.. these are the things that i want to do:

> i love to chat over the net... even over the phone..
> i love listening to music.. any music..
> i love to hang out with my friends.. very much
> i love anything that is green.. it's my favorite color.. hehe
> i love to eat..
> i love to watch movies.. very much
> i love watching series.. like House, Chuck, CSI, Grey's Anatomy and Desperate Housewives
> i love to text..

what i love to eat:

> Italian food
> pasta
> spaghetti!!
> burger
> french fries and ketchup!!!
> fried chicken in KFC!!! Love it!!
> Chocolates
> Cheese!!! I eat anything with cheese
> Japanese Food!!
> Sushi!!
> Noodles!!!

what i love to listen to:

> Punk
> Rock
> Ballads
> Hiphops
> RnB
> Mellow
> Alternative Rock

my favorite bands:

> Amber Pacific
> Mcfly
> Bowling for Soup
> Faber Drive
> Simple Plan
> Paramore
> Boys Like Girls
> All American Rejects
> Fall Out Boy

What i love to read:

> Sydney Sheldon Books
> Dan Brown Books
> Candy Magazine
> Reader's Digest


i am a very spontaneous person.. i hate planning.. but sometimes i feel that i have to because i have to be organized..
i love to hang out with my friends...





i miss them so badly...

i can be very emotional at times.. but when i have problems i usually stay quiet and reflect on it for a while..

wow..

i just can' t believe i have my own blog!! well.. i think blogging is the best thing to burst out whatever you want to say and what you feel.. yipee!!!