he started hugging her so tight.. and then she wondered why but all she did was she also hugged him back.. there was that longing.. longing for love? i didn't know.. she didn't know.. maybe they both don't know.. but there it was.. and then he whispered..
Boy: If only i can love you..
those were his exact words.. she didn't say a word.. at first she wasn't sure of what she heard.. then he said it again..
B: If only I can love you.. my heart tells me I should but my mind tells me I can't..
she didn't know what to say.. and then she remembered..
Girl: "Just don't forget your promise not to fall for me"..remember that.. you made me promise.. and you made a promise too..
he didn't answer then she said..
G: It's not that you can't love me.. maybe you just refuse to or you just simply don't
at that moment.. she felt her heart ache.. a pain she knows she shouldn't feel..
B: maybe.. but right now.. i'm really struggling to keep that peomise.. it's not that I don't.. It's not just the right thing..
silence again..
G: i was thinking and i was finding enough courage to say to you that.. i don't want to lose you.. you're just so important.. i'm not expecting you to have feelings or what.. but only one thing remains.. you are my friend and i will never leave you..
B: i don't want to lose you either.. that's why i can't love you.. i can never risk you getting hurt..
G: i don't know why but i refuse to cry.. because i refuse top believe that i feel the same way right now.. and i don't know how painful everything this is.. but i would never believe that i am experiencing right now the pain of hearing you say all of these
silence again..
G: even if i insist of going through these feelings if ever i have any.. i know i could never replace that someone in your heart right now..
B: i know.. and that's also one of my reasons.. i don't want to be unfair.. not to you..
pain it is..
G: i am fully aware of the reality.. maybe you are just feeling that right now because we are together at the moment..
he didn't know what to say.. they had their backs on each other.. then she said..
G: can i hug you? again? you're the only person who gave me the tightest hug..
he faced her and gave her the hug he has long been wanting to give.. tears finally rolled downs her face.. feeling every moment left before the morning comes..
B: you're one of the things that makes my life worth while..
G: don't make me cry again..
B: i won't i just wanted to tell you everything before i forget everything about these in the morning..
G: does that include me?
B: if i can.. i will.. it is painful to be like this.. i think it is better that way..
G: i don't care if it is better that way.. that would mean never being friends again.. not like before.. i don't like that.. i thought you don't want to lose me? leaving you would never be an option in my mind..
B: i can't risk you.. it's better that way.. i don't want you to get hurt..
G: too late.. i am already hurt..
he didn't say a word.. but he gave her another tight hug and whispered..
B: i'm sorry..
tears ran down her face again..
G: just don't let go.. i'm not asking you anything more.. just don't let go..
B: i won't..
G: just don't leave me when the sun rises..
B: i won't.. promise..
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nahitabo ni for real?
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