Tuesday, March 31, 2009

21 reasons why i love him

i found this from a childhood friend blog and i was moved and touched and i remembered how much i miss Andrey.. Gosh! i want to cry.. so you may ask why 21 reasons.. this is because this is a very special number for us..

21. he is always proud of me and always encourages me to do my best.. lalo na sa studies.. he scolds me everytime i don't study..
20. he can sing and dance in front of me.. he is never shy to reveal his wacky and crazy side
19. he always tells me what's wrong and what's right.. he teaches me to be good..
18. he calls me his "singer"
17. he do not stop me from doing the things i want best :)
16. the only guy can make me laugh when i am mad or sad
15. the only guy who can make me so angry and pissed..
14. he protects me everytime i feel not safe..
13. whenever i have big time problems he tells me that he is always by my side
12. he hugs me so tight that he doesn't want to let go
11. he respects me
10. i am his inspiration
9. he is my inspiration
8. i can sing anything to him and i love looking in his everytime i sing to him
7. he says the sweetest things whenever i am blue
6. he makes it so hard to be away from him for a very long time
5. he corrects me in my mistakes
4. he is one of the reasons why i want to live in this awful world..
3. he loves spending time with me and me with him too..
2. he is smart and intelligent.. he is very patient in tutoring me..
1. he says he loves me more than i love him and i can never compete with him.. and i really love that! :)

Monday, March 30, 2009

isuue! issue!

after hearing the news about this article i searched about it immediately on the net..

the article goes like this..

Chip Tsao - The War At Home (Racial Discrimination against Filipino)
The War At Home
March 27th, 2009

The Russians sank a Hong Kong freighter last month, killing the seven Chinese seamen on board. We can live with that—Lenin and Stalin were once the ideological mentors of all Chinese people. The Japanese planted a flag on Diàoyú Island. That’s no big problem—we Hong Kong Chinese love Japanese cartoons, Hello Kitty, and shopping in Shinjuku, let alone our round-the-clock obsession with karaoke.

But hold on—even the Filipinos? Manila has just claimed sovereignty over the scattered rocks in the South China Sea called the Spratly Islands, complete with a blatant threat from its congress to send gunboats to the South China Sea to defend the islands from China if necessary. This is beyond reproach. The reason: there are more than 130,000 Filipina maids working as $3,580-a-month cheap labor in Hong Kong. As a nation of servants, you don’t flex your muscles at your master, from whom you earn most of your bread and butter.

As a patriotic Chinese man, the news has made my blood boil. I summoned Louisa, my domestic assistant who holds a degree in international politics from the University of Manila, hung a map on the wall, and gave her a harsh lecture. I sternly warned her that if she wants her wages increased next year, she had better tell every one of her compatriots in Statue Square on Sunday that the entirety of the Spratly Islands belongs to China.

Grimly, I told her that if war breaks out between the Philippines and China, I would have to end her employment and send her straight home, because I would not risk the crime of treason for sponsoring an enemy of the state by paying her to wash my toilet and clean my windows 16 hours a day. With that money, she would pay taxes to her government, and they would fund a navy to invade our motherland and deeply hurt my feelings.

Oh yes. The government of the Philippines would certainly be wrong if they think we Chinese are prepared to swallow their insult and sit back and lose a Falkland Islands War in the Far East. They may have Barack Obama and the hawkish American military behind them, but we have a hostage in each of our homes in the Mid-Levels or higher. Some of my friends told me they have already declared a state of emergency at home. Their maids have been made to shout “China, Madam/Sir” loudly whenever they hear the word “Spratly.” They say the indoctrination is working as wonderfully as when we used to shout, “Long live Chairman Mao!” at the sight of a portrait of our Great Leader during the Cultural Revolution. I’m not sure if that’s going a bit too far, at least for the time being.



--- this is really very awful but it is never new to us.. remember the Desperate Housewives issue? about the doctors? it is very sad to think that "minamaliit pala tayo ng ibang mga bansa" yet we are so eager to get out of this country not knowing that they see us in a bad way.. they see us as "cheap servants"
i don't know about this spartly islands issue but i know for afact that there are also other countries wanting to claim this like Malaysia, Taiwan and Vietnam..
--- if Mr. Chao os a patriot then so are we.. he should understand why we are recting this way.. there are also so many chinese living here in the Philippines and i hope he will think how they would feel..
--- what he did wasn't something other chinese would be proud of.. for sure.. i heard from the news that somany chinese-filipino and chinese people were offended..
--- ofw's abroad are doing a ver noble job so there is no reason for them to be insulted and so for the Filipino people..

lastly.. we can never please everybody.. if someone says a bad thing about us, we just have to prove them wrong! cheer up Filipinos.. :)

Sunday, March 29, 2009

this is for a special friend :)

i was thinking about this person since the time i gave him a letter.. and i just want to add some things..

to my friend.. Anthony :) this blog entry is just for you.. :)

nag.labay ko sa imong friendster profile and i was fond of reading your comments.. actually i was finding my comments to you..

date: 08/06/2008 11:31 pm

* i will always appreciate everything you do for me.. :)

-- this message will always be true and i will never ever forget the good things that you have done for me.. the good ones and some of the not-so-good ones because i know it made me realize my mistakes and it let our friendship grow :)

date: 08/06/2008 11:30 pm

* i'm so thankful of having you here.. :)

-- everyday i thank God for giving people like you in my life.. especially you.. i know i have been a bad friend (once) but God knows i am so willing to change and make up for it.. :)

date: 05/22/2008 2:08 pm

* ako lagi japun imong featured friend?.. walay friendster si Daphne? musta naman mo?

--kani nga message kung wala lang ka kabalo, may halong selos.. hehe.. sooo funny! hehe..
kinsa gani ni si daphne? super selos jud ko ani bisag wala na ta.. hehe..

those were just some of my comments sa imong page..
those gave me happy memories of us.. of you..
sometimes i feel sad kay dili na ako ang imong great love.. (ahahaha.. feeler)
and your dream girl (hahaha! super feeler na!)
i just want you to know that i will never ever leave you again.. get it? okay?
i'll be your friend until the end.. bahalag dili na ikaw ang una na lalaki sa akong list sa akong mga pinakalove.. bahala naa pakoy someone else.. i will never leave you! timani na ha! ayaw jud na kalimti..

remember atong mga panahon na you were pushing me away? those times na you want me to get mad with you? kabalo ka.. dili biya jud nako to mabuhat.. i can never get mad at you.. and i will never will.. i treasure you so much even though somehow in our friendship there was once i threw it all away..

if you want to someone to share your ups and downs with.. i am always available and i will share everything with you..

i am just a text away and i will do everything i can para lang maka make-up sa tanan nakong sala sa imuha.. sa tanang pain na akong na cause sa imuha..

i regretted it..

and now.. i want to show you how special you are to me..

take care always.. :)



Friday, March 27, 2009

semester end survey..

i got this survey from an acquaintance (actually she's not an acquaintance i just know her.. and she knows me) i thought it's a fun survey so here it goes:


Who was your favorite teacher?
-that would be 2 teachers.. Sir Richard Domo my chem 15 lab teacher because he is so wacky and he jive with our class! i love him he is sooooooooo funny!
next is Sir Polito my english 2 teacher.. i love how he teach and there were no boring classes with him :)

Who annoyed you the most this semester?
- some classmates.. i'd rather not mention their names :)


- it actually depend on who i eat with.. but mostly i eat with andrey :) (God! i miss him!)

most memorable moment of the semester?
- so many! but moments in my chem lab i will never forget.. :)


- chem 15 lec period.. so boring!


- i hate to say thins but i usually fall asleep in math 51 class.. good thing i still got 2.25.. hehe


- it depends actually.. sometimes we gt to have so many assignments in math.. sometimes in Physics 21


- chem lab! hehe.. and english! i will never get bored in these classes!


- mostly.. especially when i am with andrey.. :)


- sometimes it's like hell.. but it is sweet torture!


- maybe my chem lec teacher.. but i don't actually hate her.. she just need to improve her teaching ability

summarize your semester in FIVE words?
it is just the start! haha!

what do you hope next year is gonna be like?

- more challenges, eyebags and stress! and hell exams! whew!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

i'm letting go

it took me this long to have the strength and courage to write this letter.. and i am actually having a very hard time to start it.. but then i have to just for it to end everything and finally let go of all of these.. this is for you and you have to read it.. and also for everyone who is concerned.. well now.. here it goes..

i didn't know how i handled every single thing that you have done to me..

i thought you were my friend but you have betrayed every part of our friendship..

i respected you and i have been good to you.. (that's for all i know..)

but you returned to me pain and shame for myself.. (i don't know if i make sense int this statement..)

while i'm writing this i am a bit nervous because i don't really know how to moderate the things that i would write.. but still i want to pour it all out once and for all..

that day... or shall i say those days that you didn't talk to me and i didn't know why, made me think what have i done to you to deserve that kind of treatment from you.. later on someone told me that it is because i didn't cooperate in the things we have to do.. (you know what i mean.. i don't want to specify things here)..

it was just one mistake i made and you hated me so much after that.. you didn't talk to me and i felt that "gikasabwat pa nimu ang uban"..

please tell me.. what did i do to you to make you hate me this much? to treat me that way? that moment i felt that everybody hated me for something i don't know i did..

all these years i have treated you nothing but a good friend.. i even shared secrets with you.. slept together, i was there when you needed someone to be beside with without any complain and you know that i will do anything i can to help you.. (or maybe you didn't know that because you have hurt me so badly)..

and then i discovered that you said that i was a "mangaagaw".. for some reasons.. i didn't know that when i texted your crush you thought that i was flirting with him and i also liked him.. well guess what.. hell no! i don't like him the way you liked him.. if you want he is all yours! and i never got an interest in him.. i just wanted to be his friend.. and you took it negatively.. was that suppose to be my fault? i think not..

there wasn't a day that i hated you for doing this to me.. and i am not blaming you for anything..
i was just badly hurt for all those things you did to me..

you know what were the things you did..

and i don't have to specify it..

for everybody who is concerned..

to this girl who is my classmate and my co-SPF:
i know you were mad at me.. and i already know the reason.. i thought you were a friend.. but then.. i will not push myself to people who don't like me.. i'm sorry about what happened before.. i still treat you as a friend even if you don't see me that way.. i just hope i knew what made you mad earlier and made things clear before somene gets hurt.. but it's over and i shall move on.. we shall move on..

to my former male boardmate:
i thought you were a good friend.. i know that you knew all of these when i was so naive.. but you didn't tell me.. you kept silent and you never asked me.. you made assumptions and you just let me hurt.. i don't know what to feel for you anymore.. just so you know..

to my best friend:
i forgive you already.. thank you so much for eveyrthing.. and i always pray that we will be just like the friends we were before this tragedy.. i hope you forgive me too for every wrong thing i did to you..


--- i hope you all read this..

summer is here

i admit it.. i have been very busy these past months and i haven't had the time to write.. i'm such a loser..!!

anyways.. i also admit that i haven't posted anything that is worth reading recently and i promise to write everyday when i have the time and the right thoughts..

i also miss my guy.. i hope he's fine.. he is all alone in their house.. i hope to see him this summer.. :)

and i am trying to figure out how will i organize things this summer..

i'll be back later!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

okay..

so it's the 21st day of the month? so what?

i'm all alone here typing..

i'm such a loser!! urgh!!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

English 2 Requirement: Better than Mariah

Better than Mariah Carey

On the outside, people think that I am really confident. Never afraid to speak up or perform. But what they don’t know is that most of the times I hold back on doing things I like the most, like singing or dancing in front of so many people, or write an article and audition for the school paper. I may look like I have the guts, but what they don’t know is I can do more when no one is around. When I am alone I can do things I can’t do in front of so many people. I do things that I couldn’t even dare to show to my closest friends. Being alone gives me that chance to develop whatever talent I have. When I am alone I become Mariah Carey and J.K. Rowling in one.

One of the few things I like doing the most is singing. I really love music – it’s my first love. Some people say that I have a good voice but still I was never confident enough to join competitions or perform on stage. But when I am alone, I sing with all my heart. I feel that I am way better than Mariah Carey or Celine Dion. I feel like a rock star or a diva. I grab my hairbrush in front of the mirror at the top of my lungs. I don’t care if anybody can hear me; all I can see is the stage, the fans, the mic, and me.

Imagining is also one thing I love to do when I am alone. I become more like J.K. Rowling and Stephenie Meyer. Though I don’t usually imagine of magical things, vampires and werewolves, I imagine more about seeing myself as a famous movie star or an international icon. All impossible things come to life.

Most of the time, the things I am imagining about not just stay in my head. Sometimes I also like to write them in my blog. Before like J.K. Rowling, I write stories I fantasize about. But now, I mostly write about my feelings and opinions on some things. I love writing when I am alone (just like now). I just pour all my emotions on the keyboard, typing what I feel at the moment. The best part is that no one could ever stop me.

When I am alone, I can be Mariah Carey and J.K. Rowling all in one. I can do whatever my heart desires without worrying of what other people would say. But on the outside, I am still the same me. Trying hard to be more confident and have the guts to show off what I really got. I know someday, all the things I love to do will not stop within the four-cornered room I have. I still hope that someday the world would see that I am way better that Mariah Carey.

English 2 Requirement: Something More Powerful

Something More Powerful

Is there a God? Some people still have doubts in believing that there is a God or something more powerful and omnipotent – a supernatural being that controls everything. What if we all believed that there is no God? Can you even imagine the world? Will the word “hope” even exist? How about “faith” and “prayer”? What I really think is that for the world to be a better place to live in, people believe that God exists. People would rather believe that there is a God and then die to find out that there is none, than to live as if there is no God and find out that there is. All of us need something to believe in, in order for us to strive harder and be motivated to move on in life.

Hope and faith drives a person to never give up. They have to believe that in every problem there is always a solution. They have to believe that in every storm the sun will shine after. What will happen if everybody is so pessimistic and give up so easily? I thing the world will not be a good place to live in. by believing in God most of us believe that is His power, everything will all be fine in the end. People need something to look up to – something to look forward to.

When people have something to look up to, they also look forward for good things to happen to them, like a promotion or passing a test. Some people work hard, believing that there is something good or better at the end of the road. They are motivated to do better thinking that God will bless them and give them what they deserve. They become more productive in the things that they do. They believe that when they do something good, something good also or even better will come back in return.

Thus, this is also the reason why so many of us do well and treasure our values. It is like believing in Santa Claus. When you do well all year, you get what you want for Christmas. We all want to be blessed that is why we go to church or join charity events. We all believe that God also have His “good” and “bad” list just like Santa. We treasure our values and do well for two main reasons. First is we are thankful to God for all the blessings He gave us, or second, we want to ask something from Him. By believing in God, people preserve their values and cherish them. People strive to become good or even better. All of us would want to believe that the world will be a better place to live in if we would all try our best to be good people and follow the principles: “Do not do unto others what you don’t want others to do to you” and “Love thy neighbor as you love yourself”.

Believing in God brings out the good side in every person. What would the world be if all of us believed that there is no God? With all the problems this world has, economic crisis and natural disasters, do you think we can even survive? Can we still hope for something to happen when things get out of hand? I think not. When things get worst we pray and we look up to the heavens and hope for God to help us and bring a miracle. When we have God, we develop a more positive outlook of life. Good thing we all have faith in God. For if not, maybe we would all be hanging ourselves.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

25 random things about me!

i got this entry from bianca gonzales' blog.. here are 25 random things about me.. :)

1. i hate the color orange very much..

2. i share the same room with my mom since birth..

3. i like dipping any "pritong pagkain" in cheese whiz!

4. i am very vain!

5. i love playing any pc games..

6. i love reading other people's blog so much!

7. i promise never to miss a novena mass every wednesday..

8. i try hard to pray the rosary every night..

9. i love helping other people..

10. i had a classmate in grade 3 who always called me "pangit" and she was the fattest girl in class

11. 2 best books of all time for me are "tell me your dreams" by sydney sheldon and "breaking dawn" by stephenie meyer

12. i hate harry potter books

13. i hate the song "all the things she said by tatu..

14. i learned surfing the net when i was 1st year high school..

15. before i wanted to be a doctor but i always had low grades in biology]

16. i love downloading anything i can download on the net.. songs, movies, albums, games, programs, etc..

17. i dream to have my own everything.. own room, laptop, car, house..

18. when people would first meet me i am a very shy person but when we get along well i outgrow my shyness..

19. i love singing and i will die if i can't sing anymore even though i don't have a great voice..

20. i am a cry baby.. i cry over the smallest things

21. i am a very forgiving and considerate person

22. i am a trying hard writer.. huhu..

23. i like iza calzado very much! as a person and as an actress!

24. i dream of studying abroad and maker my family proud

25. i am a simple but unique person.. :)